I can't help with what is expected of your course, as I'm not doing it; but I can see you've hit a low point - everyone has one sometime or other.
Sometimes (and it's hard to see it yourself) it can be good to slow down a little, have a little break (even if it's only a day or two) where you think of everything else other than your course.
The other point I will make is that the tutor,assessor doesn't have it in for you and although in an ideal world you'd want your tutor/assessor at the other end of a telephone or email, they too have extremely busy lives with demands on them, that sometimes they feel is overwhelming.
A member of my staff spoke to me saying that she felt her assessor was ignoring her emails/telephone texts. I advised her to speak to her assessor and tell her how she felt (nicely), as if they were to have a good relationship they needed to work together. It turned out that someone had left at the assessor's centre and she was handed over all outstanding courses (with no please or thankyou). She was struggling herself but trying to be professional and keep on top of things. I (and colleagues) helped my member of staff all we could supporting, helping, encouragement etc and it helped her see how everyone has bad days/periods etc, but when it's your turn, it can appear the whole world is on your shoulders - so to speak.
Speak to your manager, colleagues, a friend and the assessor/tutor, they really do want to help you, and remember it will be all worth it when you have your qualification. Everyone has a blip now and again - it's only human.
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